How Shannon Got Her Groove Back

They say the comeback is better than the setback, right? Well watch out Britney, it’s Shannon, bitch! LOL I’ve always wanted to say that! Side note, I have never pulled a full out Britney Spears and taken an umbrella to anybody’s car, but I did think about shaving my head at one point when I got my bald spot (please see post https://imfeelinphat.com/2019/01/29/its-okay-to-be-scared/) because I thought I was going to lose all of my hair. The moral is, I feel ya Brit, life can get heavy sometimes.

This has been a year of survival for me. I’ve been going through the motions, but not truly living life to it’s fullest potential. Just like my bald spot, I have undergone a period of significant growth over the last few months. I am no longer a caterpillar and not yet a butterfly, but I am transforming. I have a strong personality and tend to do all or nothing. I overthink, I over-love, over-feel, over-analyze, over-stress and it causes internal chaos, which is absolutely daunting.

In August of this year, with only three weeks notice, I booked the trip of a lifetime for myself, my mother and my two sons. We flew out to Rapid City, SD, hopped in an RV and drove 1856 miles from South Dakota through Wyoming and back. We hit four National Parks, a few State Parks and saw only a small portion of what this country has to offer. I will make a separate post about the trip because it was UNBELIEVABLE and everyone should do it!

Anyway, it was me, the wonderful woman who created me and the the AMAZING little men that I created. There are no words to describe how incredible our journey was. That trip was a huge eye opener for me. It was three generations together. There was no schedule, no cell phone service, no drama; just love, laughter and life the way it should be…simple. I happened to turn thirty five while I was out there and I have never felt so alive as I did for those ten days. Seeing the beauty of what this world has to offer brought a whole new sense of calm and peace over me.

The picture above is from the last day of our trip at Badlands National Park. I felt so revitalized. I felt like myself again. I felt like the world was mine and that there were no limits! I would drive the RV at night while everyone slept, so I had a lot of time to think and work through the chaos in my head. I came to the realization that I needed to let go and just trust the process.

Change is inevitable and growth is uncomfortable, but I’m trusting the process. I have faith that what is meant to be, will be. The setbacks, detours and delays are setting me up to take over this world!! I’m falling in love with me again. I’m falling in love with the process of becoming the very best version of myself. The version of me who is PHAT and happy, inside and out!

Moral of the story: I’m BAAAAACK!

PS- watch out Britney, I’m taking over that stage in Vegas! 😉